Happy 4th of July, USA!


Last year I whined about how much I hated Independence Day because firecrackers were a hazard, and they drove my dogs absolutely batty. However, this year I realized that my two dogs who hated the noise are no longer here…I miss them dearly, but it’s also a relief to know they won’t be miserable for another noisy holiday. My three remaining pups and the cats don’t really care one way or the other about firebangs and noise, which means I have some choices to make. Do I have to stay home this year, or can I venture out to see a professional show if I so desire?

Odds are I’ll be home watching something on TV tonight, but knowing I could go out if I wanted to or if I were invited out is immensely satisfying. I can get dolled up (within reason…the new impractical shoes would not work for fireworks shows), go somewhere, and just let myself appreciate the holiday without panicking about Akane or Perdita having fits at home. Wow…just wow…

I was also without internet for about twenty-four hours due to an issue with AT&T, and I felt like I’d lost an arm. I am such an internet junky that not having access was painful. One of my worries was that I wouldn’t be able to post to my blog today (because everyone is waiting eagerly for my silly posts, obviously!), but here I am. Yay for the internet being back, yay for non-stressed pooches, and yay for being able to stream something tonight if I choose to stay in!

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Sometimes I Like Being a Girl

I’ve gone through a lot of emotions and upheavals in the past several months, but one thing I’ve learned is that being a woman has some serious perks when it comes to cheering ourselves up and changing our self-image. I’m not saying that guys can’t do these things necessarily, but I don’t know many cishet men who would do the things I have to branch out.


I’ve started wearing make up to work just as a confidence boost to myself. It’s nothing extreme most of the time, but a touch of mascara and lip tint goes a long way to reminding me that I can be successful and a girl at the same time. I know I look nice, which adds to my comfort level, and the guys in production look anyway, so might as well look pretty. I even got a wolf whistle yesterday from one of the guys I chat with…my office mate warned me that could be an HR thing if I wanted to pursue it, but I wasn’t offended. I just need to be careful about how often I wear my new Harvest Moon BPAL babydoll.

I’ve also begun wearing jewelry on a regular basis and doing more with my hair. Since my work outfits are just T-shirts, although I’ve been buying more babydolls, and jeans my jewelry isn’t too over the top (okay, the one choker/collar I own pushes the envelope a little, but no one has said anything). The little touches remind me that I don’t have to pretend to be a man to get my job done. I guess it’s my version of the tough attorney with the silky lingerie under her power suit.

I’m also wearing perfume again regularly, which feels like I’ve gotten part of myself back. I stopped due to dating someone who was allergic plus my money issues made buying stuff prohibitively expensive, but my situation has changed. I’ve gotten compliments at work on my scents, and my boss even liked Wolf’s Heart (that’s slightly weird, but sure!) on me.

My bellydance classes are also something I wouldn’t have been brave enough to try in the past because I have no sense of skill with dancing or my body. I’m glad I’m taking that step because it’s something entirely for me, and it connects me with other women of different skill levels, body types, and reasons for dancing. Being around different people also pushes me to expand my horizons, so we’ll see.

My new found confidence and blossoming has been noticed, but I don’t know what that means for me. I’m still feeling my way into this new stage of my life, so I need to figure out me for a while. Being a girl is hard work after all, and I want to make sure I get good at doing it on my own!

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Trying to Get Mail When You Work an 8-5!


I hate, hate, hate finding delivery tags on my door when I drag myself home from work at the end of the day. It’s not that I don’t want parcels (I love parcels!), but I know it’s going to be a major hassle to try to get said item due to working through the hours my local post office is open. The irony is that I work directly across the street from the central post office in Austin, but I don’t know of a way to get my mail transferred back from my branch office to the one I can easily get to during work hours (if anyone knows if this is an option, please let me know!). Inevitably my notices also contain the dreaded “If checked, you or your agent must be present at time of delivery to sign for item” ticked since the parcel lockers in my mailbox block have been re-keyed and are usable again.

Besides just managing to get my hands on the mail piece I’ve discovered that I get almost nothing I want via registered mail. I get legal documents that either depress me or just make me scratch my head most of the time. At this point I think that has trickled off, and while I do understand why legal forms need a signature upon receipt it’s still frustrating. Here’s just hoping that whatever I rescheduled to be delivered today is something I actually want and that my postal carrier can manage to deliver it as requested!

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I Tried Belly Dance Today!


Admittedly, my outfit was not anywhere near that adorable (it mostly resembled by fashion disaster yoga clothes from last week, but I wore black shorts instead of the wonderfully eye searing blue ones). I discovered a drop in all levels belly dance class through the Austin Belly Dance Association MeetUp group, and it’s something I’d put on my list of things to try as a distraction from going too crazy.

I showed up thirty minutes before the class started, which turned out to be way too early since no one was at the studio! I wandered around the area a little bit, read some, texted and screwed around on my phone, and just worried that I’d read things wrong on the website. However, the instructor for this morning’s class, Liora, showed up promptly at 10:30 and opened the studio.

To my surprise and pleasure I ended up getting a private intro to belly dance class because I was the only person who showed up! I learned about things like hip and shoulder ups, moving my hips and shoulders back and forward and side to side, started working on shimmies and snake arms, and generally learned how to watch and make my body work as a single instrument. It was also very low stress since Liora was really friendly, and I didn’t have anyone else watching me.

Admittedly I’m feeling muscle strain in some odd parts of my body (the fronts of my shoulders, WTF?), but it was a lot of fun. I’ve purchased a class pass for Liora’s Sunday night beginner/intro class since a. it’s the one that fits best into my schedule b. I really enjoyed her as an instructor. If I continue with belly dance long term I’ll obviously need to work with other instructors, but right now I just want to enjoy doing something different from what I’ve always done. I’m just glad I was brave enough to give it a try.

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Losing Any Possible Fashion Sense


All my work must have destroyed any sense of good fashion choices. I quite seriously left the house this morning for yoga in a lime green top, bright blue shorts, and hot pink shoes with fluorescent yellow laces. While no one at yoga is judging, I’m pretty sure at least a few people at HEB and Whole Foods were when I stopped to run errands on the way home! Am I just getting old enough that I don’t care, or has my intense (deliberately on my part) work schedule eaten the portions of my brain that allow me to select colours that don’t clash?

However, there are more serious questions in my life…such as how tarted up/gothy should I get to see Mad Max: Fury Road a second time at the Alamo Village tonight at 10:15?

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A Week with No Blog Post

Sorry for no real blog post this week. It’s been a bit of a roller coaster, and while I’m definitely on the upward slope my brain is trying to process too many things. I’m a bit off-balance because of the thoughts and emotions trying to take center stage. However, I managed to make something good happen for someone today, and it really made the person’s day. Heck, said individual even cancelled plans to make my proposition work out (it was dog related, so get your minds out of the gutter!).

I have a new to me microwave, so no more struggling to figure out how to heat things. Yay!

Now time to wander off to feed myself and debate whether I want to rent Mad Max: Road Warrior tonight or wait until tomorrow morning.

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Being Girly for Action

After a stressful work week I got up this morning and suddenly decided to do something just for me. I’d already chosen to see Mad Max: Fury Road, so I opted to get dressed up and pull out make up for a little date with myself. Hope this recharges me some!


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